Let me share my story with you of how Positive Forward Movement changed me.
Years ago I would never imagine I would be where I am today. I was a young mom in a relationship with someone I thought I would share forever with. Unfortunately, things didn’t go as planned. I found myself in an abusive relationship. I became withdrawn and was constantly in a state of fear. I poured everything I had into artwork. Eventually, I left the relationship and things got worse instead of better. That just added to my issues. My family was broken and relationships were strained. I went through a difficult custody battle and lost everything. My art studio, job, my smile, my hope for life, and it felt like my mind.
I’ll be honest I hated myself. I replayed his words and actions over and over again. Trying to understand the why. Not fully realizing how much abuse changed me. The effects of abuse were with me every single day. I felt like I was living a nightmare or possessed. There was so much darkness and negativity around me I couldn’t breathe! I had very little help and no support system. Life was so hard! It was a very dark and hurtful time. I didn’t know how to pull myself up. It was just me, fighting for my life!
I wanted to give up and thought that everyone would be better off without me. In fact, I believed no one would even notice if I were gone. I was at a point where I didn’t care if I lived or died. I didn’t go out much and drank away my pain at night. I wasn’t alive inside. I was literally just a shell. Looking back I don’t know how I even operated. What I do know is that God saw fit for me to live!
One day I woke up alive and I realized that life, is always the choice. The enemy wanted me to lose and miss out on all the blessings that I have received in life. I was given a second chance at life. From that day forward I decided I wouldn’t allow myself to ever get so low. I wouldn’t allow anyone to damage me. I decided that I was happy, whole, and complete. Full of life and love. I decided every day I would focus on the positive and move forward in life. No longer would I be a victim to others or myself! I reclaimed my life. I accepted responsibility for my healing.This was the birthing of my philosophy and the beginning of a long journey to self love, recovery, healing, personal growth, and transformation. It was not easy. Depression is real, the impacts of being abused are real. But I did it!
In order for this to happen there was a process, and that involved me accepting and letting go. I had to let go of the familiar pain so I could reacquaint myself with feeling good again.
A Change is Coming
In order for me to reach my breakthrough and overcome depression, negativity, and feeling stuck in life I knew needed a change. I packed up my car and moved away from everyone and everything that I knew. I moved to this small town in North Carolina where there was nothing to do but focus on myself. It was the fresh start that I needed. I reconnected with myself in a major way and literally fell in love with myself. I connected with an amazing woman who was like a sister, mentor, and friend. We were actually a lot alike except we took different paths in life. She was living the life that I wanted for myself. I love Jackie so much for everything that she showed me.
During this period of transformation I said two things religiously: Your Life is My Business, Manage It!™ and I’m focused on Positive Forward Movement™. When I tell you immediate change started taking place, I started to live again. It was so awesome!! This was such a transformative time and helped me further along in my journey.
It changed me. I was renewed and ready to continue in this new life, but when I moved back home it wasn’t exactly what I needed. Being around the same ‘friends’ and people who didn’t accept that I grew, really challenged me. I had a horrible job, was struggling, and felt like I made a horrible decision. There were times when I truly regretted moving back home, but if I hadn’t I may never have met the man I plan to marry. It was like I had to start my life all over again, dealing with the same crap! I believe that everything happens for a reason, so I had to keep fighting and not give into what other people wanted, thought, or said. This time I wasn’t giving up I was putting myself first and didn’t have time for anyone or anything that didn’t serve me.
When I chose me, life, being happy, and positive energy I won! I learned to love myself and life again. I focused on my goals and dreams, my family, and creating the life that we deserve. Everything was great I moved from toxic situations and people. I did what was best for me. I put myself first. We are taught that is selfish, and it is but that’s not a bad thing. Being selfish helps protect us and it helps us grow. When I put myself first I can take care of myself and make sure I have enough energy, love, and support to give to others.
I fell in love, started pursuing my goals, and right as I was nearing the birth of my 2nd child, my fiancé gets arrested! This was such a test. Once again my world was shaken up. With no definitive outcome on our relationship or situation, instead of getting depressed, I knew what I had to do. I turned to Positive Forward Movement™! I focused on me, my family, my goals, and my business. I used everything that life taught me in previous years to move through this situation with style and grace.
Bringing Positive Forward Movement™ to Others
I’m Jovanhanna Tisdale. I am the mother of 2 amazing girls and the fiancé to my love King. I am the owner of Positive Forward Movement, LLC a small business that I started so that I could help others change their lives. Along my journey in life, I was always helping and mentoring other women that I came in contact with. Giving sound advice that would help, never hurt or lead someone astray. Because I have had bad advice given to me and I have also been so alone there was no one to seek advice from. No one should go through what I did alone!
I started blogging years ago to help me heal. I started blogging again last year when I was pregnant and become really passionate about it. Writing has always been my thing. I thought that I would write about my pregnancy and Motherhood, but really I was writing inspirational articles and about personal growth. It was still in me to help people and have a positive impact on society, that was the birth of my business. I had a plan in mind, purchased the domain name, secured the trademark and my business license. In a few short days, I went from idea to dream! My journey, mantra, and way of life became a business that allows me to do what I love!